No More Tears

i love you
but how about your feelings
Do you feel the same ?
or not ?
when will things get clearer ?
will it stay as obscure as
      it is now?
are you hating me?
or the other way around

but no matter what i do
i go back
to the same "old" crazy feeling
i have for you

i want time to fly
so that things will be clearer for me
it's killing me, the endless questioning
i am even losing hope
as if i can't wait no more
but i hope
that there will be
 a fulfillment for every wishes
kept in my heart

so many things
i can't seem to face
but i have to
it's part of my life
trying to smile
amidst the difficulties
and frustrations
i encounter

sometimes i want to just cry
but there are
no more tears to fall
why am i becoming like this ?
i guess the pain
made me numb

life is like a lost dream
all because of you
you taught me
to weave dreams
in the air castles
it is only there
that i could find
fulfillment of my love for you...