First Love

the surprise of my life i got it today
God, if i am dreaming, please don't wake me up
i was not expecting a letter from you
since you're coming over during the weekend

am i really your first love ?

my first love
is a love that turned into an illusion
    and a challenge
can you somehow read between the lines ?

will you really choose me ?
i almost memorize the sweet lines
      in your letter
but you might just be patching me up
   because of last week's event

but no matter what you did to hurt me
i know in my heart i can always forgive you
because i love you...

is this love strong enough to
    survive the years ?
to surpass all the trials and obstacles ?
will you really fight for your feelings
   for me ?

i studied the letter in detail
trying to dissect  it piece by piece
i never grew tired reading the lines

but somehow deep inside me
i still have my doubts
are you really telling the truth ?
or are you just manipulating me ?

again if i am dreaming,
please don't wake me up