Crazy Feeling

i love you
but how about your feelings
do you feel the same
or not ?
when will things get clearer ?
will it stay as obscure as
  it is now ?
are you hating me ?
or the other way around

but no matter what i do
i go back
to the same "old" crazy feeling
i have for you

i want time to fly
so that things will be clearer for me
it's killing me, the endless questioning
i am even losing hope
as if i can't wait no more
but i hope
that there will be
a fulfillment of every wishes
kept in my heart

so many things
i can't even face
but i have to
it's part of my life
trying to smile
despite the difficulties
and frustrations
i encounter

sometimes i wanna cry
but there are
no more tears to fall
why am i becoming like this ?
i guess the pain
made me numb

life is like a lost dream
all because of you
you taught me
to weave dreams
in the air castles
it is only there
that i could find
fulfillment of my love for you