Just A Friend

you're my crush 'coz of your cuteness
it might be the difference in you
the uniqueness of your sweet smiles
with caress and embraces of your touch

as days passed by
with you, i've made the most of my life
and face life with smiles on my face
perhaps,the down of it, didn't made me?

to discover the inner most part of myself,
of what do i really feel towards you ?
and then i begin to reflect my thoughts,
what meaning do you give to life ?

i spent so many sleepless nights
thinking of the down to earth jokes we've shared
but why must your image
keep haunting me even in my dreams ?

is it love ?
or mere kindness that make us near
i was mixed up for it is difficult
to understand  the real score of our friendship

what cause us to share love's goodness
why can't i simply turn you down ?
will there be  a place for us someday ?
why can't i make things go without you ?

i was lost and confuse
and your touch gave protection
your eyes gave light and love
and i started to "need" you

am i not worth to be called your "dearest one"?
what am i to do now?
start building a "new" world
just to break it into pieces later on

i may be bitter but i'm not hating you
i am still in my right senses
and i know we're nothing but friends
for...it had been "that way" ever since

you left me with a touch of pain
and shattered dreams to cling on
what's instore for my "tomorrow"?
now i am lost again...

now i know the real score of our "friendship"
for you, i may just be a friend
and yet for me
you're more than just a friend

i love you...so soft and oh so sweet
filled with affection and earth's goodness
perhaps even paradise and heights of heaven's glory
a very short phrase you took for granted