Could Love be this cruel to me ?

I never realize until now 

that love could be this cruel

can't I love freely

without any pain ?

nobody inspires me 

I seem to be losing my direction in life

as if I got no reason 

to live

it's goddamn hard

to live in illusions.

The sun is almost 

setting at its horizon

a day will end 

and it will be night  time again .

and everything is still the same stuff

what will I do then ?

wait for another day 

to see you again

then what's next ?

just to know 

that you are free no more

and I got no space 

to occupy in your life 

Could love be this cruel to me ???