What will I do then.....????

i am getting crazier every day
but i have to go on with my life
how long will the waiting be ?
it's torturing me so much

but why did you let so much chance to slip off your fingers ?
what do you want ?
for me to do the moves
maybe i am not damn yet
but i could still bear to make sacrifices
and i am looking forward
     "that day " to come my way

but why is life like this
the one you love
doesn't even notice you
and the one you're not noticing
loves you

sound  confusing , isn't it ?

how about if you never
    come into my life "
what will i do then ?

Wish

it's the last day of the month

how time flies
that i don't even notice
the changing of the day
and the passing of the night
and yet
i'll always be there
waiting....wanting...

i don't know
how i fell
in love with you
i don't even know
your real name
my knowledge of you
is so vague
all i can do is ... wish

i may never "know you"
because i'm not equip
with psychic forces
to be able to "know you"

it's been months
i really am
missing you ...so much

Sometimes ...

i am having a hard time coping up
i can't talk to you
nor just see you

all i can do
is imagine
going out with you
and sharing some precious moments

sometimes
i feel envious
whenever i see people
together with their special person

sometimes
i feel like
playing around
but i can't take it
that way
so i guess
i just better wait ... for you

if i only
have you
then no need
for weaving dreams
in the air castles

i won't even feel
this goddamn loneliness
perhaps i will be happy then
but i'm not
just because
you are not there

sometimes
i wonder
if you are just ...
a product of my imagination
or a real human person ?



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More Than Just A Friend

what cause us to share love's goodness ?
why can't I simply turn you down ?
will there be a place for us someday ?
why can't I make things go without you ?

i was lost and confuse
and your touch gave protection
you eyes gave light and love
and i started to "need" you

am i not worth to be called your "dearest one" ?
what am i to do now ?
start building a "new" world
just to break it into pieces later on

i may be bitter but i am not hating you
i am still in my right senses
and know we're nothing but friends
for ...it had been "that way"eversince

you left me with a touch of pain
 and shattered dreams to cling on
what's instore for  "tomorrow" ?
now i am lost again...

now i know the real score of our friendship
for you , i may just be a friend
and yet for me
you're more than just a friend

i love you ...so soft and so sweet
filled with affection and Earth's goodness
perhaps even paradise and heights of heaven's glory
a very short phrase you took for granted