i'm not sure
if what I am feeling
is a kind of first love
maybe ,
because it is just now
I felt this way
you are not here
and yet as if you are here
I don't want to be committed
because I want you
to be my " first commitment"
Do you understand ?
I feel suffocated
and crazy
because of this feeling .
I can not even
understand my own self .
Maybe if you just know
how much I am suffering
you won't let it be ....
but time oh time....
when will you be kind to me ?
